Tuesday 12 March 2013

THANK ALLAH



bismillah...



* aku jua insan biasa...



maha suci ALLAH mengizinkan diri ini berbicara  , Alhamdullilah :)



11 mac 2013



hari itu aku pergi membantu ibu dgn keja NGO ibu.. ada byk perkara yang aku belajar dan aku yakin ALLAH sedang tunjuk aku sesuatu yang tiada siapa bisa memahami..ibu ku bekerja sebagai sukarelawan bg kanak2 istismewa..



aku melihat kebanyakkan mereka ada seusia dengan ku,bahkan ada yang tua lagi dari diriku..aku merenung lagi melihat 4 kanak2 yang berusia 3 tahun ,yg dipanggil adik ika,adik pie,adik safiah dan juga adik hadif.



ibu meminta aku menjaga dan mengajar mereka sementara ibu dan rakan2 sedang uruskan org dewasa..



aku mula menegur dan berkawan dgn adik2 itu...



aku mula mengajar mereka namun yg memberi sepenuh perhatian hanya adik pie. adik ika pula tidak henti2 hendak memeluk dan menciumku.. aku terharu dan seronok melayan mereka..adik hadif ni pembersih sgt ,sbb setiap kali dia pegang apa2 musti dia nk basuh tangan ..hehe.. adik safiah pula petah berbicara tp hyperactive sekali.



sekali ku lihat mereka normal namun ALLAH da beri mereka ujian sebagai tanda kasih.mereka adalah kanak-kanak yg mengalami down syndrome..

aku jua melihat walau mereka seperti itu mereka tetap teruskan hidup .walau ALLAH tarik satu nikmat tapi mereka tetap menghargai nikmat yg lain.



selepas rehat ;



aku bermain kotak beracun bersama-sama dengan rakan2 seusia dengan ku namun sebelum aku bermain , aku sempat bertaaruf dengan mereka semua.



i really2 admire my mum because she able to handle all this child.



mcm2 aku lihat, ada yg buta ,ada yg mengalami kecacatan mental , ada yg mengalami masalah pembelajaran dan ada yg pelbagai kecacatan dialami. namun aku melihat mereka tetap teguh berdiri .



aku kagum dengan mereka semua .



really2 envy with all them.. betul ! kejadian xcdent itu sedikit sebanyak memberi kesan padaku . walau aku berusaha memujuk diriku bahawa ini semua sudah suratan namun luka itu tetap ada.




Aku cuba bangkit ! 


ya ALLAH , aku malu berhadapan dengan MU..


aku lemah dengan ujian ini.


Terima kasih ya ALLAH , ENGKAU menegur ku melalui mereka semua !


Bersama dengan mereka semua membantu aku bermuhasah dengan 

kelemahan  diri ini !






Aku menerima pesanan dari sahabatku ,Nur Nabilah Azman :



“ALLAH itu Maha Penyayang , diambil orang2 yang DIA sukai ,diuji org2 yang  DIA  cintai .Ujian2 itu sesuai dengan kemampuan hambaNYA . Andai ditukar segala isi dunia dengan kasihnya ,
Semuanya tidak bernilai ..sahabat , maaf diri ini tidak ada disisimu kala ini. Sungguh , aku rindu zaman kita berdua dulu. Enti tabahkan hati . yakinlah dan gembiralah dengan tinta ALLAH , surah ali-imran (AYAT :139 ).Itu bakal menyukakan hatimu. Tinta hati dari sahabatmu buat si tinta hati. “







Coretan 1 ,


Tinta hati .

12.52 P.M 

13 MAC 2013

DI BUMI TERENGGANU .




Wednesday 6 March 2013

ALLAH


Things do get complicated.

Life is not easy, not all the time

It's not every time and everything about being so lucky.

It's not that God doesn't love us.

And,

Everyone needs to face test.

Because we will never know how is it like to feel Beyond happy if we never know understand what is pain.

No. Life is Fair. People Not. Allah is fair, because HE loves us no matter what.

Not Everyone is going to love us. Understand us. Think Good about us. Be there for us all the time.

To be honest, we can't do that too. There's always a fight between nafs and Iman.

Do the best. Remember Allah. Please Lord , prevent us from any maksiat or evil on earth.

Eyes, Mouth, Ears , Nose, Hands, Legs, Mind, Heart.

Everything.

Things Just Happen.Yes some hurt . But that's the purpose. As that's how we learn to appreciate.

People , and what we have.

Don't over think and keep counting what we don't have and what people have.

Some people do have it because, that what's best for them. There's always the best for us.

What we have today.

As how we see we have weakness. So does anybody else.

As how we see people have specialness. So do us.

Destiny , Taqdir . Yes Allah has written it for us.

But, it's actually what path do we choose. How we handle things.

What decision we made.

People can talk. people can say.

But it's our Amanah to takecare of what Allah has given, we are just borrowing.

Our job to take care of ourselves. The best as we can to prevent Fitna, to people. to us.

Do the best, let Allah settle the rest.

Obviously, shaytan is everywhere. Nafs is always in our heart. Anyone's heart.

So we actually can't stop people from thinking/talking negatively.

But always, keep people's aib. Allah will keep our 'aib, in this world and InshaaAllah HereAfter.

BUT

As long as we breath, it's never too late to turn back, to HIM.

As long as the heart beats, there's always a chance.

It's okay. HE knows.

We cry, we get mad, we feel extremely insane. Mixed Feelings.

It's okay. We ARE human.

and guess what? TURN BACK TO HIM. Regardless time, place.

Be nice. Be good. Nothing to lose.

HE shall give the best. To you, me, us.

Hold On. Keep praying. When the time comes,

MIRACLE HAPPENS.


p/s: To HIM i come back :)